Tomoko Yamagato
"I'm falling all over myself
Trying to be someone else." - The Pretty Reckless
Name: Tomoko Yamagato
Allias: The Serpent, The Snake, Keeper of Monsters, Creepy Mask Girl, Slit Mouth Woman, Miss Smiley Face, Miss Mask, Bitch, Crazy, Petty, Ranka Harada and Moko.
Age: 24 summers old.
Name day:26th Sun of the 1st Astral Moon.
Work: Owner of The Blooming Lotus, part-time adventurer, career criminal, cleaner, and full-time mother.
Eyes: Right is crimson and left is removed
Limbal rings: Ruby red
Hair: Long Black (Past her bottom in length.)
Height:4'3"
Weight: 80 lbs.
Fighting Style: Pugilist, Scythe combat and Grappling.
Aether alignment: Fire and Wind.
Features: Scarring on cheeks, chin,
and neck, two tattoos on her breasts, and scarification of Seiryu on her whole back, which has now been tattoo over with ink version. She also has tattoo sleeves. She also only has one eye.
Body Jewelry: Both horns have multiple piercings, she has the belly button, and nose pierced also. She wears multiple bangles and tail rings. She also wears a silver or gold chain with gemstones that are shaped like tears that rest just under her eyes and above her nose.
Personality: Polite yet flirty, meek she was once long ago, now due to the damage from her drug use has altered her personality from being lucid, in the blink of an eye very wild, short-tempered, and irate. Internally dead inside and very melancholic.
Vices: Ex somnus/drug addict, off the wagon drunkard, and a lot of mental health issues, often starves herself and deep need for scarification. She is also addicted to stealing things.
Inspires: She has a deep passion for Alchemy and learning new things. She desires adventure despite being not equipped for it.
Languages: Hingan, some Garlean, Doman, and Broken Common.
Hobbies, skills, and likes: Enjoys Quiet time and singing (Only for herself not professionally) She loves dancing, and she also loves playing the harp, koto, and lute. She can dabble in other types of string instruments but unlike that mentioned not too skilled in the rest. She also loves to tell stories. She also crafts, sews, and makes jewelry. She can milk poisonous critters and handle animals. She can also apply makeup and do hairdressing. She can also pick locks and crack safes. She can also do aerial performances. She can swim really well. She has also learned the skills of butchering and organ harvesting. She is also trained in pugilism.
Status: - - - - -
Sexuality: Bi-sexual.
Alignment: Chaotic Evil
Voice credit: May'n
- My character can often trigger people. So approach at your own risk.
- ERP is welcome however, it must be storyline-driven.
- Keep RL and RP separate, please.
- Have fun always.
- Try not to metagame. I do follow the traditional T1 rules of roleplay.
- Walk-up roleplay is welcomed.
- Dark themes warning.OOC:
A few things need to be noted. I am in the AEST time zone.I am also sick in real life. Sometimes I will vanish from roleplay. If I don't reply back within thirty minutes. I've most likely passed out or am throwing up. I am not ghosting you and you are not boring. I will apologize like crazy when I return.On the same topic of sickness. I am on some heavy medication that causes me to be a bit confused and sometimes I get words mixed up a lot of the time and will often mistype. I try my best not to mistype, but it does happen.I am also a rather slow replier, and since English isn't my first language. I can sometimes not make sense. Just let me know if you need some understanding.
- Ex Clients.
-Far Eastern.
- People willing to teach her Alchemy.
- Maybe you just need someone to talk to. She is a great listener.
- Take her on an adventure.
- Need some dirty jobs done?
- Supernatural themed.
- Do you want to stick your OC hands into dangerous cult themes?
Tomoko Yamagato had the unfortunate fate of being the unwanted daughter of a young woman from a prestigious family.The family immediately disavowed the infant Tomoko when she was born. They discarded the infant by giving her away to a Madame that ran a brothel in Kugane.For her growing years, Tomoko was "gifted" to one of the younger ladies of Madame's brothel that is the closest she perhaps had to a mother, daughter relationship in her life.The brothel life isn't the "ideal" space for a growing girl (Or anyone) and, the miscreant Tomoko would often catch sight of things a girl should not need to see until she is of age.On occasion, she and the Madame crossed paths resulting in Tomoko being "disciplined" more often than not. Tomoko would argue it wasn't her fault there, was nothing her "Mother" could do about it.Once coming of age, the expectations of Tomoko diverted from the childish playground to the adult conduct of the brothel. The Madame would no longer allow Tomoko to run around the business so freely without earning Gil, resulting in Tomoko becoming the rambunctious whore people pay to "love" often.Tomoko had so many different relationships with the girls and clientele of the brothel, remembering it all could make someone's head spin. Yet, resentment, hatred, and jealousy are the relationships she could recall better than a hot breakfast with her Mother. In this business losing, one's beauty with age is common, and other tricks are needed, but if someone has no other tricks? They fall out of favour, and one bit--woman, in particular, saw to it through violence that the beautiful Tomoko could no longer "steal" clients from her by scarring Tomoko's chin and cheek with a rigid rusty dagger.Brazen as the naked moon, a slender loose tongue Seeker of the Moon with a bit of a chip on his shoulder named Ram'ka spoiled her with odd babble about his alchemy. He's far from a gentleman but made up for it with his passion (In more ways than one), but the important thing is that she loved to hear him talk.To her, the days with Ram'ka were at the forefront of her mind and the dominator of her dreams, but this wasn't love, but rather cancer to her mind. His passion for alchemy rubbed off on her; he made boring things sound like a dreamland that she craved to join. Tomoko would start to spend her few personal funds buying little alchemy books where she could usually from traveling traders since they had the most colorful texts.((To be continued))
Sleeping Beauty:Tomoko's condition still hadn't changed. She was fast asleep somewhere between plains of other existences. The male nurse had a new face with him. A hyur midlander someone claiming to be related to Tomoko, he did seem like a new face but not new to Ul'dah. The mid-twenty summer old hyur male had entered the room. The room was darkened due to the dust storm that raged outside. The wind caused debris to hit the window occasionally. As sheet lightning pierced passed the gap between the closed curtains.Tomoko's body was barely visible only taking shape when the lightning entered. He brought out a lantern and turned it on to light the room. "Hmmm." He said to himself as he examined Tomoko's body that was clad in a nightshirt. "Too bad about the face." He joked rather vulgar in humour. "Those scars seem rather familiar." He hummed then upon seeing the rose tattoos that framed her cleavage he remembered seeing her in Pearl Lane along with a Xaela that had smacked her up pretty badly.Even though he understood no Hingan he gathered it was a one-sided work relationship given the fact that Xaela had pushed her into him that day and asked if he wanted a good time. "The drug addict whore, interesting finding you in a place like this." He said with a sigh. "I guess now, I don't have to pay to see you naked now." He joked as he loomed over her still body.It was clear this random that crawled passed security had ill intentions. Though he wasn't only in his ill intentions a sudden thunder roared loudly and zigzag lightning flashed in the sky illuminating the room more with that the lantern light had ceased and darkness enshrouded the room once more. The Midlander stopped his vile thoughts. "What?" He said as he tried to reignite the lantern. When he heard wheezing and gargling noises close by, he gulped and then heard the sound of dripping he could feel something wet staining his shirt. His heart raced with fear as lightning graced the sky again, causing a brief moment of vision for the male.His eyes widen seeing the pale woman in Far Eastern garb with long brown hair matted with blood. Her eyes were lifeless, and her clothing was stained with blood. His eyes fixed on the ghost woman's neck where it had been slashed and her vocal cords were visible and exposed. When the light left it was dark once more he turned around to run and felt something in front of him. The strong scent of Somnus filled the room. "Leave me alone!" He screamed. "I am sorry!"He exclaimed beggingly.The room was filled once more with light and he looked at what was in front of him. It was a different woman in Geisha-type clothing smoking a long Somnus pipe. Her skin was pale and her hair was up in a decorative bun. She blew smoke into his face, he felt every single second of the cold air that was pressing against his skin. She laughed a cold and cruel giggle at him as her mouth started to foam and her eyes turned lifeless also.The male urinated himself as he exited the room without looking back or caring who he bumped into. Which happened to be the Elezen nurse who looked at him and called out to him. "Mister, where are you going?" The guy had ignored him and ran off crying with pee-soaked pants. The Elezen shrugged and entered the room. Its darkness seemed still and when he turned the lantern on everything seemed fine.He noticed her partially dressed body and sighed thinking something didn't add up. He noted that L had also come in and offered a greeting to the Raen seeing her place a charm of protection before leaving again. The Elezen nurse had finished changing her and the bedding and finished checking her vitals before leaving himself. What he didn't see was the four extra presences in the room as they stared at the charm and made shrieking sounds in protest. While the Elezen reported this to the doctor.Dreams:Tomoko lay stretched out on the beach of Shirogane enjoying the rays of the sun. Chiyo her mother let the pregnant Tomoko rest her head in her lap as she played with her daughter's hair softly. While she hummed a song to soothe her daughter. "Only two more moons and you will be a mother." She told her daughter. Tomoko smiled. "I have you to guide me, show me how to raise my daughter just like raised me." Chiyo nodded her head to her daughter. "You will always have me. I'll never leave you alone my sweet peony."The sound of the ocean crashing against the sand, the native sea birds chirped and made commotion breaking the unity of the waves against the land. Tomoko sat up on her elbows to look at what had the birds all flustered. Her mother covered her eyes and hushed her. "Don't look." She hummed. "They just want to ruin the peace... Those silly birds." Tomoko took a deep breath and bit into her lower lip. She felt like she was forgetting something important. "Let us stay like this forever. It's everything... We are together and we can raise your daughter together. Three generations of us Kugane women."Tomoko felt herself relax with her mother's words and drifted back down resting her head back on her mother's lap. Chiyo combed through her daughter's long lush black locks and started to sing her daughter's favourite lullaby. Tomoko closed her eyes and hummed along. It felt like hours had passed and she thought she must have fallen asleep. When she opened her eyes, she was no longer at the beach. She was lying naked in a field of Red Dahlia their scene overwhelmed her.It made her start to cough and cough more, till she started to vomit blood and a red dahlia that had a gil pouch tied to its stem along with a piece of paper. Tomoko started to panic as she reached for the note and read words out loud "Worth every single gil." Tomoko paused not hearing her own voice but that of a male that held such a deep voice. "Whose there?" She asked as she looked around. She felt breathing on the back of her neck but as she spun around she was back at the beach once more.Tomoko's best friend Jie Li offered her hand to her. "Come silly, let's go swimming. The water will do good for that baby of yours." Tomoko looked at her friend's hand and blinked a few times. "Was I here all the time?" Jie Li looked at her and laughed. "Mother Crystal to Tomo are you here or your head in the clouds?" Tomoko laughed nervously. "I must have spaced out." She admitted as she took Jie Li's hand and proceeded to go into the water with her.Today:Qing Li had paced a million times in front of the medical rooms trying to build up her courage to enter she did in fact promise D she would go see S and Tomoko. Though only partly drunk she still felt uneasy about entering the recovery section of the medical department. "Come on you an old woman. You got this." She tried to convince herself but failed badly.-------------------Waves:Tomoko played and splashed about the ocean of Shirogane. Jie Li would play with her as both of the girls laughed and were happy, carefree like a blissful moment Azim wanted to paint. Tomoko crawled up and rested on the rock as the waves hit the solid foundation causing an echo thudding each time it connected. The sound was Hypnotic and for a brief second Tomoko closed her eyes.When she reopened her eyes she found herself in some dirty waterway in Central Thanalan against the rocks at the bottom of some waterfall. The half-submerged. She saw the water she was in tainted with a rusty red colour. She panic thinking it was her baby in trouble and when she rose out of the water to check her stomach. It was flat and all the weight she had put was gone. She was underweight, her body stung and she saw multiple lacerations on her legs and wounds on her stomach, she felt her head pound with pain as she placed her hand against where the pain was located she felt the dripping of blood.She started to cry out loud asking for help, no one was around except some critters that were looting through her bag. Tomoko started to walk towards the land and every step she took felt like an endless stride. It seemed she wasn't making any progress in reaching the land. "Help me, someone...Anyone!" She begged as she continued to try and reach the land. She fell on her knee and wept to see her effort achieve nothing.She stared endlessly towards the land feeling empty and, in much despair, and when she was ready to give up. Tomoko finally saw some figures approaching. Tomoko screamed loudly. "I am over here, please help me!" Yet no matter how much she screamed at them. It seemed they couldn't hear. When they focused and became in view clearer. She knew one was S and the other a pretty woman, fit and pretty with eyes that appeared strong and confident. She carried a baby to her chest. They looked happy together.Tomoko felt her heart sink more into despair and hugged herself as she broke down crying more. Tomoko's question was this hell, did she die was this all that was for her in the afterlife? She tried so hard for redemption none of the twelves showed her mercy for her all she had changed was all the good she tried doing was for nothing. "I did everything...I tried..." She closed her eyes to not look at the two of them with their baby. "I love him, I need him...I want him. I want our baby. Give it all back to me! I beg of you." She pledged to whoever diety hell she believed she was in.Tomoko sobbed and held herself tighter. She felt a heavy pressure against her shoulders and breathing on the back of her neck. "I'll always love you. I'll always need you...I always want you." The same male voice from the flower field spoke once more. A cold shiver ran down Tomo's spine. She opened her eyes which were now dead in expression as she stared forwards. The woman S was with shifted image a little and took on a crab-like sea-monster look for a split second and smiled directly at Tomoko. "No..."She replied. "I don't know who you are!" She yelled in anger. Just as her fury unleashed via her tongue she was pushed underwater and struggled to breathe.As her mind drifted into nothingness, she woke up and looked around shocked and in fear but she was no longer in the waterway. Instead, she was in Kugane and had a harp in front of her. She was glammed up in her finest robes and hair jewellery and heavy makeup. She looked across from her and saw the Garlean commander she was told to call master. The Dragon and she was his peach. He was surrounded by his trusted bodyguards. "Sorry, My Dragon. I got distracted... Please forgive me." She placed her hands on the strings of the harp and took a deep breath.Guilty as charged:Qing Li paused upon seeing L. She offered her a formal fist-to-palm greeting. "Hello, L." She looked passed her briefly. "Yeah... I bet they are sleeping still...Like both are in some magical coma living it up." She joked but partially hoped something happy was in their dreams. "You look tired, have you rested and eaten? I can cook for you." She offered.The lament songs of Sirens:Tomoko took a deep breath and started to strum the strings of the harp, she focused on the song she had chosen as the notes and lyrics were placed on a stand near her. It seemed an odd choice for the company she performing for. The Dragon didn't hold anything foreign as value. What he held were the things he could break and shape in his design. After starting she looked at The Dragon and offered him the smile he had ordered her to greet him.After a while, her eyes drifted to the side to stare at his guard. He had always been nice to her and fixed her broken bones after The Dragon had finished with her. She didn't care that he was a pure-blood Garlean. She only saw him for him and not his nation or who he worked under. Tomoko started to sing the song in her native language Higan but her eyes remained fixed. "Hana hirakeba chou eda ni mitsu. Warera utau sora no kanata he. Haruka nagaru kumo no mukou he, Umi wo koete niji wo watatte. Kimi ni todoku you ni." ( Flower bloom filling the butterfly branches.I sing to the distant sky. Beyond floating the clouds afar. Over the sea and across the rainbow. Hoping it will reach you.)She paused a brief second to look at The Dragon to not make it obvious she was staring at his guard as she sang the last verse of the song.
"Seki wo kitte afureru omoi. Itsuka sameru yume no ibashou de. Warai atte irareru you ni. Kasane tsumuide yuku. (Overflowing emotion bursting out. Place of dreams, I shall wake up someday. Hoping to smile together. that will someday. I spin one moment after another.)Tomoko repeated the last two verses again her eyes flickered between the two of them. She desired to only stare at the guard but couldn't risk getting him into trouble. "Warera utau sora no kanata he. Haruka nagaru kumo no mukou he, Umi wo koete niji wo watatte. Kimi ni todoku you ni." Her fingers continue to strum the strings to perfection. "Seki wo kitte afureru omoi. Itsuka sameru yume no ibashou de. Warai atte irareru you ni. Kasane tsumuide yuku...."She finished the song with an outro of the harp before stopping her performances and bowing to The Dragon. "My Peach is always sweet, come sit with your dragon." When Tomoko lifted her head to nod and approach she was in another location completely different. She was in Pearl Lane dressed in provocative clothing and wore a full face of messy and heavy makeup. She looked up and saw a tall highlander male wearing a helmet and full armour."Hello beautiful, you remind me..." He paused and stared at her scarred-up face with intensity. "Of one of my flowers that I grow." Tomoko offered him a smile. "Thank you, can a girl offer you some fun for a small price?" She placed her hands on his plated chest. "Straight to the point. I could be a murderer or something. You should be careful a beautiful flower by herself is asking to be picked." Tomoko laughed. "I'm a big girl, I can look after myself." She teased.Tomoko stared at him as she did the world around her distorted and was shrouded by darkness, and rain started to pour down on them both. "What...is going on..." She paused and backed away from the male. "What is real..what is not..." She questions. The mysterious male stood there silently. "Who are you? I don't know who you are!" She yelled at him. The male stood there in silence still. The same voice that was in the flower field and the waterway was heard again. "You do know me. I never expected you to live after what I did." He unclasped his helmet and removed it.His face was covered with a crude metal mask. "You know me very well." He continued. Tomoko reached for the mask to pull it from the male's face. The head had changed to that of Jaspen. "Nope, I am not him...He did want you. You were his first-ever consensual relationship." She paused as she pulled his face off. The image changed to Kamina. "You were just his extra gil. You were needed. Yet I am not him." Tomoko started to tear up. "I don't know you...What are you!? What is this place?!" She screamed as she pulled his face off once more and it shifted to Hirotain. "Not him either but he did pity you. You made his nights in Ul'dah." She pulled his face off again. It shifted to Bones. "He needed you as his puppet and meat shield...His little bedwarmer. He never loved you.."Tomoko's hands trembled as she pulled his face off again each time hearing the ugly truth. His face turned into Benji's her heart cracked. "Not him either... but funny after you lost his baby, he left you. You couldn't give him what any other woman could a healthy child. You are indeed pathetic in his eyes. That's why he has kept your twins you stole." She started to cry and shake her head as she pulled his face off once more and was turned into Vancyl's and her heart sank. "No..please don't." She begged him. He laughed. "You broke his fragile heart, like the harlot you are. He hates you and blames you for his trust issues with women. As your nightmares say to you.. He paid his whore and cured his sickness called love."Tomoko slid to her knees and held to his leg. "No..it wasn't like that." She cried and looked up at him. His face had yet again changed. He was now S and he laughed down at her before grabbing her around the throat and pulling her up to face him. "You were just his rebound, he never loved you know this. He loves L. He told you that time if it wasn't for the fact you were knocked up.
- he wouldn't be with you. Why would he? You're not his type, you're not useful. You are still nothing but that gutter trash drunken whore he pitied." Tomoko sobbed her spirit was broken.He threw her down to the ground, she curled up into a fetal position. "Broken, useless, weak, ugly. They all see it...they all know." Mid sentences the male's voice turned into a female's. "You should let me in. Go to sleep and let me in." Tomoko covered her horns. "I will be stronger than you can ever be." Tomoko lay there still as the words echoed in her thoughts despite trying her hardest not to listen. The figure closed in on Tomoko and sat by her head pulling her up into her lap. When Tomoko opens her eyes to look at her. She stared at another Raen that was the spitting image of her, just with both eyes red and without the facial scarring."Rest Tomoko, let me take control." She said as her intense ruby eyes bore into her eyes. Tomoko shook her head not trying to resist being weak. "Sisters..." She started to talk but felt suddenly sharp pains in her stomach. She screamed out in pain as she looked down at her stomach which was pulsing with hand prints from the inside.Harsh truths:In reality, the still comatose Tomoko started to thrash around and seized violently again. At that time the Elezen nurse was coming in to check on her after Esme had left. He called for Doctor H, who was drinking his coffee at the time. After assessing the situation, he had no real choice in the matter. The baby had to be taken out at eight moons along. He had barked orders at the Elezen to get the others they had to start the emergency caesarean section, or both would die. He washed his hands and got the nurse to glove him as another nurse took his surgical tools out.Over seven bells had passed The sound of a baby crying was heard from the medical ward. Though both lives were saved Tomoko's condition didn't change for the better. Dr H had stopped her from dying but she was in a critical condition. Her vitals were weak, and he suggested a coma was the best position for her to remain in to allow her body and blood pressure to level and be on, plus the drive for a swift mend if she desired to fight to live. He did all he could now it was her turn to fix herself and live.Void:Inside her dreamscape, she was alone with her eyes covered by a blindfold. As the rain continued to soak her to the core the only sound that was heard was her sobbing after a while that too ceased.Qing Li:After talking for another five minutes trying to worm out of it she had agreed to go but as soon as the yes was said access to Tomoko was denied. She started to worry. "What is going on L? Is.m.I---" She choked on her words.Current:Qing Li paused upon hearing the word birth. "She is only eight moons along? She-- something must have happened...They both..are they both okay?" She expressed concern about Tomoko and her child. She then heard that S had left the company grounds. "What? On his own...He is awake and just left?" She felt herself swell with fears and assumptions. "L..." She looked at her. "I don't know what to do...I need to stay... I need to find him...What is he thinking?"The baby that had been born was underweight and weak but alive. Nine point nine ounces was her weight, she had no scales on her body, the smallest horns and the stubbiest tail. She had lungs that were healthy since being born and having her airway cleared, she wasn't scared to use them as she cried. The Elezen nurse had cleaned her and placed her upon Tomoko's unconscious body for maternal bonding even though the circumstances were grim.Qing Li had lost herself in thoughts and hearing the baby in the room crying made her heart sink. The father had gone and left, The mother was still stuck in the lands of dreams. The child was born under the darkest of circumstances. It was something she felt deeply ashamed of. If not for her S would have never been hurt. If not for her Tomoko wouldn't have been stressed to the point of sickness.She could see that L was also stressed her mind torn just as much as hers. She lowered her head. "I will hunt down...I will find him...I have the set of skills..that can be used... this is all my fault." She admits. She fell silent as she continued to hear the new crying. "Azim..lend me your strength." She softly said.Inside The Room:The baby rested upon Tomoko's chest, her heart beating against her mother's heart. Her tears ceased as she tenderly fell into slumber against her mother. The Elezen nurse silently watched. The Doctor went silent and looked at Esme. "Thank you, your help was appreciated." As soon after he said his words he left the room. The other nurses cleaned up the blood on the floor and the doctor's tools before they would even consider moving the two of them into the recovering room. All agreed to give them this moment a little longer.Twilight:Tomoko remained, stagnate and still in the eternally dark abyss. The rain continued to pour and was pooling up. She was now sitting waist-deep in the water. The only sounds that were heard were the droplets hitting the water adding to the volume. She stopped crying, she stopped moving, and she stopped begging. The willpower had been forcefully removed from her. She felt empty no longer feeling life within her womb, no longer feeling much of anything, numb to the core.The blindfold still covered her eyes, the cold of the water felt like nothing against her skin. The demons that taunted her, the memories that haunted her were gone for now. Yet nothing of hope and love came to take its place. She was voided of anything and everything. She was here yet not she was something she was nothing and, in this state, she remained.Out of her mind, the real form had now changed, still out cold, she was unresponsive, and she was very much in a critical condition. The baby that was asleep on her chest was not felt, her heartbeat against her daughters was never felt. The first glance she would have wished for wasn't granted to her. The first kiss she would place on her daughter's head would never be. The first human touch given to her daughter would not be hers.After those fleeting moments had passed when the Elezen nurse had taken the baby and the others handled Tomoko being transferred back to the room and cleaning on the operating bed. The absence of her daughter being removed wasn't felt either. Qing Li had watched them pass by with the small girl, the blending of S and Tomoko's flowering love was small was precious. She wished that their beautiful girl was born under different circumstances, yet the reality could never be a fairytale.Qing Li looked to L about the mention of protection and bad things might happen more. Which worried her greatly upon seeing the hired muscle collect Tomoko and take her back to the room with her daughter. She felt it necessary to act fast. "Best do it now." She said to L and V.Mother:Tomoko remained still as ever and the rain continued, which the water level to rise more. The endless darkness that embraced her remained with not a single spark of light to break its power. Though amidst the darkness the sound of footsteps was heard, causing the water to shift and splash. The ripples stopped at Tomoko's body. The sound of footsteps did also.In the darkness, Tomoko's body had arms wrapped around her frame tightly. The whisper in Tomoko's horn the female's voice once her. "Didn't I protect you? Didn't I make your life better? Your waiver in submitting... Let me remind you." She said as her lips caressed Tomoko's head softly and her hands slipped the blindfold from off Tomoko's eyes.The surroundings changed they were in The Okiya run by Cat mother. The scarred-free Tomoko held Tomoko's face to look at the scene. It was the day Tomoko's mother's wake happened and the teenage Tomoko sat by her mother's shrine in utter grief. She kept praying to this Kami her mother spoke about and tried to instil faith in her daughter. The young Tomoko begged this Kami to return her mother to her between tears and praying.The young Tomoko didn't see the others approach her. Their leader was an inspiring courtesan the same age as Tomoko and didn't see her as a sister under Cat mother's ownership but rather as competition and every chance she got, she took it to torment Tomoko. Even with her mother's death being so recent. The other saw it as her protection was finally gone."Your stupid mother deserved being murdered by her lover. What did she think? He was rich and she was just a whore. That baby meant nothing it was going to ruin his reputation. Moron dies, stupidly and she was a moron." The girl barked at Tomoko. The other four girls by her side laughed. Tomoko looked at them all. "Airi, please leave me alone just for today." Airi laughed cruelly and grabbed Tomoko by her hair. Tomoko screamed as she struggled to get free from Airi's grasp. The other four jumped in and took Tomoko by her legs and arms to hold her down.Tomoko pleaded with Airi to not do this. "Please, Airi show me mercy...just for today." Airi shook her head no. "No, now that that mother of yours is gone. I can finally get rid of you. Don't worry you will join her in Hell." Airi retorted as she produced a knife from her sash that kept her Kimono in place and used the candles of her mother's shrine to heat the blade up. Tomoko eyes widen seeing the knife and went to scream for help but one of the girls covered her mouth. As Airi started her attack firstly on Tomoko's face to disfigure the root of jealousy.The scar-free Tomoko whispered again to the once-forced-to-watch. "See what they have done... See why you needed me." Tomoko who remained frozen had a reaction as her lips trembled. She watched her young self be disfigured by Airi and her throat slit in order to kill her. If not for a client of her mother's who happened to be Shinsengumi and his friend who was the local medical practitioner.At that moment young Tomoko would have joined her mother in death. At that moment young Tomoko wished that her face was ruined and her value in The Okiya lowered. Though she was saved that down. A few weeks passed and young Tomoko was able to work chores, cooking and cleaning. When Airi only received a warning cause Cat mother paid the Shinsengumi for silence more so a threat to inform his wife of his sexual exploits at The Cathouse.It seemed Airi wasn't going to let up on her attempts. Though at the moment when Airi called young Tomoko slurs and bullied her relentlessly. Young Tomoko seemly appeared different. The scar-free Tomoko held Tomoko's face and licked up Tomoko's horn as she whispered once more. "See...remember... What I did for you. After all at the end of everything. I love you, I need you...I want you. No man or woman can ever fill that void. I am everything you'll ever need, S can't protect you he can't even protect himself. He can't hold your hand as he promised when you faced your demon. He didn't want to since you rejected that time in that cave."Tomoko watched as her eyes welled with tears. She had subconsciously forgotten this moment. "He can...He does...He promised. He never breaks his promises." The other Tomoko laughed. "Like he promised to marry you, as he promised in front of that Sultana tree...He will love and be faithful to you. He would never leave you. Oh, my sweet weak self. Your trust and kindness...your love is what holds you back. That is why they use you and leave because they can. They do, you subdued me with drugs..you tried to keep yourself distant from me. Watch..remember this moment..remember me."The other Tomoko forced Tomoko to watch as Airi's attack turned into the lowest and worst memory of Tomoko's. Airi had been forced down as Tomoko used a dirty bedsheet to wrap around Airi's throat. There was a struggle but young Tomoko had the upper hand and footing. After Airi's strength left her young Tomoko wasn't done. She pushed Airi's head into the scolding hot water and held it there as Airi's body twitched and thrashed around. Till she lost her breath and went still.Tomoko tried to close her eyes but The other Tomoko forced them open. "Look...I did it, I protected us...I avenged us." Tomoko cried. "Please stop showing me this!" She begged her other self. "It didn't stop there...look." Tomoko was forced to continue to watch the horror. As young Tomoko dragged Airi's body off and took a cleaver from the kitchen and started to hack at Airi's body in a fit of pure utter rage. Tomoko started to scream and struggle against other Tomoko as she tried to pull free from her grasp.When she did and was about to use force to punch the other Tomoko she vanished in a fit of laughter. "You will dim that spirit once more...I will win." The vision ceased and she was back in the eternal darkness standing in the ever-rising water as the rain continued to pour down. "I will not!" She yelled. "I will not...I will...I will not." She felt that spark but it was faint.Inside the room:Tomoko slept still not a single reaction physically was seen, the ghosts at the mercy of the charm. The baby was asleep peacefully. As the three visitors enter the room. Qing Li agreed to L's conditions as her focus remained solely on the newborn of Tomoko and S. "Whatever you need." She spoke. "I will do anything."Qing Li would simply nod her head to what L said. She was prepared to do anything and everything to correct this horrible outcome of her failed protection during the hunting trip. She placed her hand on the little baby girl's face, she was swaddled in a blue blanket and placed in a makeshift crib. "Your mommy will be fine. We will make sure of it and we will find your father...Things will be fixed. I promise little one...your birth under this darkness..will not define you."What Qing Li couldn't see was her daughter Jie Li, the Geisha-type ghost staring at her with tears. "You couldn't fix me, how can you fix her, mother!" Jie Li tried to grab Qing Li but her form wasn't solid."Why can't you see me, why can't you feel me? Don't you love me anymore, mother...mother please see me!" The more she screamed at her mother the more the air around the four of them felt colder.What L could see was intense, Chiyo, Tomoko's mother was sitting next to her sleeping daughter. Another figure was that of a blond highlander woman who had a harpoon impaled her through the stomach. At the base of L's foot was a small hyur girl sitting and playing with her long dark brown hair. It appeared the child had died from a broken neck from how her ghostly image looked.The charm and white soul stone are still on the side desk. Its effect seemed to halt the negative actions of the spirits. Qing Li was obviously to what was around her. When the baby girl woke up, she smiled up at Qing Li with baby gaggle sounds that accompanied her gummy smile. Qing Li picked up the baby and placed the small infant on her chest as she hummed to soothe the young one back to sleep.Heavens:Tomoko paced in the darkness, trying to think of a way out of this situation as the place she was trapped in kept flooding and now was at the level of her chest. Though nothing ever was clear enough for her to see. It seemed the darkness stretched far and wide and no amount of ground was ever gained.She was running out of time and didn't know how to fix things to leave this place. She didn't know if she died, and was in hell. She didn't know a lot. She worried she had miscarried and died from complications and that S would wake up to sadness. She hoped she offered him happiness and knew if that was indeed her fate. He would be saddened, despite the evil that tried to twist it to, he is better off without her and you caused him more pain.She tried to remain positive for the most part. The other Tomoko had not come back and whether or not her memory of her taken Airi was real or a delusion. She tried not to be hung up on things. She wanted to at least find a way to the heavens. There she would be with her daughter for she knew if this way death her daughter would be in the heavens.While things were stagnant in the dreamscape, inside Tomoko's room. Things were happening, Qing Li heard, -
- what L requested and placed the baby back into the crib before taking her place. "Alright, I hope things will be good...I hope everything will be better." She said as she looked at the rest. Jie Li stared at L seeing how she was acknowledged. "You can see me..." In a flash of an instant was standing right in front of L. "Help me!" She screamed at L as her mouth yet again foamed up, choking and her eyes rolled back into her head as if she was reliving her overdosing death.The child ghost looked up at L. "Where is my mommy?" She asked. "I miss my mommy." While the blond ghost said nothing but paced around and gave death stares at L. Chiyo eyes never left Tomoko she didn't care that L could see her. Qing Li understood a little of what L used of the four lords. She never questioned anything for she wasn't spiritually connected. She knew she couldn't tell M about this.
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Tomoko seemly walked forever trying to find anything, yet nothing was ever seen as a means of an exit. She was on the verge of just falling back into that pit of despair until a crack started to form in the blanket of darkness. The light filtered in and reflected a partial scene through the cracks. Tomoko tried her best to look at the scene that was being displayed.What Tomoko saw was the time S and her were sitting in Pearl Lane. He had brought her the food he promised to bring her daily for her aid in looking out for a woman who was supposed to be dead. She was telling him a story about two brothers hunting with their father and ended up facing an evil witch's familiar. They needed to work together despite their differences.She placed her hands on her chest and felt her heart beat faster, she was confused if was she alive or dead. What was this place why were they showing her all her memories? "I thought I was helping, every story has a hidden message for everyone...they just need to hear it and take heed to the words." She lowered her head away from the vision. "I wish, I could go back to simpler days like this...My smile was stolen by you."Tomoko closed her eyes. "I gotta keep the calm before the storm. I don't want less, I don't want more." She said to herself while she smiled softly to herself. "It's still your smile." She felt the spark of hope igniting more inside of herself. "Gods, keep my head above water. Don't let me drown, it gets harder. I'll meet you there at the altar, as I fall down to my knees. Don't let me drown, drown, drown. Don't let me, don't let me don't let me drown." She hummed to herself as comfort. "So, pull me up from down below because I'm underneath the undertow...Come dry me off and hold me close. I need you now, I need you most."Inside the room, things were still in motion. Jie Li looked at L and then at the eldest ghost that appeared. When she was told Qing Li her mother could see her. She went straight in front of her mother. Qing Li froze up upon seeing the outline and then her daughter's image. Qing Li burst into tears wanting to hold her daughter tight in her arms but knew she couldn't. In Doman she would call for her daughter. "Nu er." (Daughter)Jie Li hear what said that she was able to hear and see and to think wise before speaking. "Ma ma..." (Mother) She paused. "Dui bu qi." (I am sorry) She cried softly. "Wo de si bu ying gai guài ni." (You are not to be blamed for my death.) Qing Li slide to her knees she wasn't expecting this at all. She stared at her daughter's ghost and cried uncontrollably hearing her words. Jie Li spoke once more for the last time. "Wo ai ni." (I love you) Jie Li looked at L and then at her mother. She felt the regrets leave her soul and felt at peace.Jie Li looked at Tomoko and then at her baby. "She blames herself for my death also...She isn't at fault. I've forgiven her for everything..It's time she forgives herself. I am allowed to go. I can be at peace that the two of them forgave themselves." She said before looking at L. "Thank you." With that said she started turning into a golden light and vanishing into thin air.Qing Li reached out to touch her daughter as she vanished, she was in tears, mixed blessing tears of happiness and tears of missing her dearly. A mother who lives on, a parent shouldn't live longer than their children. The cruel fate that both M and her endure daily with that heartbreak. She was broken down in front of the rest. The ghost child stared at the oldman and blinked. "Are you god, sir? Can I go to heaven now too?" She asked in Hingan. "The scary man who grabbed me that night...took me away from my mommy."The blond wasn't as cute or nice. "Fuck off, old fossil. No one cares to move on except for the Far Easterns. I want my life back, she will pay for it." Chiyo just hummed softly to Tomoko's body, unlike the others she was able to touch Tomoko stroking her daughter's hair softly.-----Aranya:Tomoko continued to walk endlessly in the darkness the water was now at the level of her neck. She knew she wasn't going to have enough time but hoped and prayed she would make it out of this hellscape. She noticed another crack in the darkness unlike the previous what Tomoko could see was not such a good moment as on a prompt The other Tomoko had reappeared behind Tomoko.The other Tomoko hugged Tomoko from behind and leaned closer to Tomoko's horn. "Let us have another flashback, shall we?" She whispered and she nuzzled her scaley cheek against Tomoko's cheek. "Let's start at the beginning of this crazy memory." The surroundings shifted to the markets of Kugane a seventeen summers old Tomoko standing on the corner near a food vendor. She was dressed like she was working.Since Tomoko was scarred and disfigured her status was lowered to just a common yujo. She was offering her services when her eyes caught a tall Xaela male. He was gang-affiliated and looked exciting. The start of a very tremulous love story and as soon as their eyes meet it was set in motion. He often said Tomoko's best feature was her ruby-red eyes. A treasure that would ultimately end with him having one of her eyes in the literal sense.Kamina was his name; he was a wild ride. The two of them started off like a hot and messy type of relationship. The lovemaking, the petty crimes, the fighting and the drugs. Tomoko descended into the world of Kugane's underbelly. Through Kamina, she meant others alike, her now sister Kuuna and her now brother Kazuma. These relationships shifted in times some stronger and some not as strong for the four of them.Tomoko remained by Kamina's side, his pretty and broken whore and let him do just about anything he wanted. This one night the four of them meet up in Kugane. They ate and drank as plans were quietly discussed about a house they had plan hit up and rob. Tomoko sitting on Kamia's lap like a good girl. Kuuna's evil dagger eyes bore into him all night and Kazuma fell into line out of respect for Kamina.Just another night, just another score in motion. At that moment they felt immortal and nothing could get in their way. Though that moment seemed pleasant it made Tomoko the one stuck in darkness freeze up, the other Tomoko that held Tomoko tightly watched on also. "Didn't you have fun? Suppressing me with sex, drugs and pain?" She taunts. "We all know, what is going to happen." She laughed afterwards.Tomoko said nothing but watched on, her heart breaking with every second she watched her memory play out. "Let's fast forward." The scene had changed, and Kazuma approached some dock in Shirogane. Kamina and Tomoko who were prepared for this job things looked positive and it would run smoothly but looks were indeed deceiving. It was already ominous since Kuuna never showed up, so the three of them set out to continue this job anyway.They came to a house that was owned by a rich Hingan who owned bars in the city. Tomoko was gathering up expensive bottles of sake and jewellery upon leaving to go into the next room. She had been approached by a sleepy child. Who had mistakenly thought Tomoko was her mother. Tomoko froze at first and tried to play on it telling the child to go to bed. The child realised that Tomoko wasn't her mother and started to cry.Tomoko held to the child and tried her best to calm the situation down but her actions were not working and upon Kazuma entering the scene it had taken a turn for the worst. The Doman male picked the child up and ripped her from Tomoko's grasp. What transpired led to the death of that innocent child. Tomoko burst into tears and screamed at Kazuma that she had it under control. He didn't care it seemed at the time.Tomoko had left the scene and dumped all the Hingan currency they took into the hot springs out of rage. When the two came to the meeting point. A fight broke out, first at the fact she threw away the money and treasures but the whole situation had now turned from theft to murder. Tomoko blamed Kazuma wholeheartedly and deep down herself. It ended with Kamina breaking Kazuma's nose and Tomoko giving him a split lip.It led to further downward spiralling. After all, was said and done. Kamina and Tomoko went back to their hideaway. Where a week clean Tomoko had given into darkness and had Kamina shoot her up with Somnus. To sleep the pain and grief away and continued to numb herself. Even knowing the poor child's name in new the following day her name was Aranya. A name Tomoko will never forget.Upon the memory fading the other Tomoko kissed Tomoko's cheek tasting the tears that stained her skin. "If I wasn't suppressed.. I could of help more than any drug would have..." She hummed. "No guilt..no shame in actions to survive this harsh world," Tomoko yelled at other Tomoko. "Shut up! Just stop your heinous cow! I --I wouldn't I don't... I don't need you!" The other Tomoko clicked her tongue. "You'll grow tired, you'll sleep sooner or later." She said as she vanished into the darkness.Tomoko covered her face and cried into her hands, this memory made her fall into despair once again. She wasn't a good person, she didn't deserve to be with her daughter. She took a child from her mother how can she be a good mother? The thoughts flooded her mind and made her cry in pain and scream and yell in sadness and anger.Inside the room, things were still going, though Jie Li found peace in knowing her mother will forgive Tomoko. The blond wasn't so easy to find that peace. The old man ghost tried to restrain her but she teleported to the other side of the room towards the baby. She tried in vain to grab the child but held no power to do so. Chiyo had gotten angry over this fact and left Tomoko's side in an instant and grabbed the blond ghost hair throwing her into the wall. Where she disappeared. Though she was looming close by. Chiyo looked at the baby and placed a soft touch on the infant's head."My sweet granddaughter, no one in this life will ever hurt you." She whispered. Aranya closed her eyes seeing Chiyo hurt the blond ghost. "My name is Aranya, miss..Are you going to help us go to heaven? I miss my mommy she is waiting for me." She replied back to L. Chiyo moved back to Tomoko's body and resumed playing with her daughter's hair. She didn't reply back to anyone she cared little for them only her family that was in the room.Qing Li still remained on her knees crying silently but still allowed L to use her aether. She was just beside herself with the whole event. The hunt that caused S injuries, the death of her Chocobo Sasha, and the birth of S and Tomo's baby, her own daughter were all too much.----Existing:Tomoko was submerged, her mind drifting off into nothingness. The brain does funny things during the last minutes of one's life. As hope drained and her lustre for what she had lost dimmed images flickered in her mind. The time in Pearl Lane where she told S the story about the spirit in the flower and a samurai who fell in love with her. The depiction in her mind as she was the flower spirit, and S was the samurai, and the other Tomoko was the witch. The love he had for her drove him crazy, for to love a ghost is to be voided of touch.As the story starts, with most stories a princess, a witch and a lonely man wandering. A tale of jealousy, love and obsession. The young fair princess Anzu lived a prosperous life her father had her future planned out since birth. She was to marry the prince of a neighbouring city known as Prince Kei. The prince wasn't as proper with his duty, he had fallen in lust with a local girl. Who became jealous of Princess Anzu and the goodness she held and symbolised the bonding of cities.Princess Anzu's father held strict rules about magic users and was often punished by death. In Prince Kei's lover's case, her mother was killed for magic. To get back at the king, the witch cursed his daughter Princess Anzu. The curse takes the young Princess's life and traps her soul in the moon lily. This is where the story officially begins.One night the full moon illuminated the night sky, and the stars danced to the songs of the night. A lone Ronin makes his way through a dense forestation pursued by another who had killed his master. Upon reaching the safe ground the Ronin rests finally only to see in the distance the glowing light that drew him in like a magnet. He had gotten up to take in the warmth of the light.His tied eyes stared at the lone moon lily. He was amazed such a beautiful flower existed all alone in this dense forest. His cut-up fingers dared to trace its soft petal staining its white and pure colour with his crimson blood. He was tranced by it and the more he looked at the lily the more changed before his eyes. The flower had turned into a pale beauty with long black locks soft almond eyes, such soft features and dressed in white his blood had smeared across her cheek.He was taken aback by the woman's beauty and fell to his knees. Though the woman never spoke first nor did she move. The moonlight basking around her and the fall of Sakura petals circled around her frame. "Are you a god?" He asked the woman. She shook her head no and placed her hands on the Ronin's hands to examine his wounds and with her light had healed his hands.At that moment, Ronin had fallen in love with the woman he just didn't know yet. After the night was over, she returned to being that lone moon lily. Every night since he visited her. He watched her dance with the night butterflies, he watched her feel the rain on her fingertips. She started to speak more and more to him. She had found herself falling deeply in love with the Ronin. As time went by, moons had passed the Ronin wanted to feel her touch.He seeks out all the magic users to find a solution to his love curse. He finds the witch that had cursed his love but was not known to him yet. She offered her help for a token of worth. Though she secretly just wanted to ruin Princess Anzu's happiness once more. She gave him the supposed cure which in turn cursed him. When the Ronin went back to his love the curse take over and he aimed his word at her. At this moment Tomoko felt surreal about the scene of S aiming his sword at her.Even though he was depicted as the Ronin and she was the flower spirit. It felt deeper than a story being told. After knowing the ending of this story. Tomoko as Princess Anzu pressed herself into S. The Ronin's sword impaled herself while staring at him. Her expression displayed such a sad smile and tears fell down her cheeks. She reached her hands to caress The Ronin's face softly as his facial expression turned into regret and sadness. "I love you." This is all that Tomoko portrayed as Princess Anzu said to S who was the Ronin. At that moment she knew what she had to do. Just as she knew what he had to do in this story.In reality, that very moment Tomoko's body started to convulse again, her airway became blocked as she gasped for air. The nurse who was waiting outside heard her gaspings and ran in despite the ritual that was being performed. Tomoko had stopped breathing, her heart slowing, and her face was turning blue. He immediately started cardiopulmonary resuscitation. He called for help be it V, Esme or Dr H.The child ghost started to cry, and Chiyo looked at the five of -
- of them in the room. "Do something." She said then vanished along with the child ghost as Dr H ran in to tend to Tomoko. He felt the situation was grim. He continued to try and try pumping her heart and breathing into her mouth. He had felt her heart stop and frantically started to work harder and faster cursing under his breath.Inside her mind, she remained still in the water no air bubbles visible. As her mind wandered to the ocean of Shirogane. A storm raged in the distance; the waves were violently crashing into the sand. Tomoko was face to face with other, Tomoko. He yelled at her. "Are you really going to let us end like this?!" Tomoko smiled at other Tomoko. "I am at peace, I now understand. I need you too, I love you too...I want you too." The other Tomoko paused hearing those words. "I need to accept me, everything about me...to truly be happy with myself...good and the bad...It is still me. I can still be better."The other Tomoko. "You're wrong, there can only be one of us that exists." Tomoko shook her head and took out the Ronin sword that was still impaled in her chest. The release blood spilt out and Tomoko coughed up blood. She dropped the sword onto the sand of the beach. The other Tomoko chest copied her and leaked blood from the same wound. Tomoko reached her hand into her chest and pulled out her own primordial soul that was in half and offered it to the other Tomoko.The other Tomoko was forced to copy the actions and screamed in protest. The two connected once again and formed a whole soul. A burst of light that was so overwhelming erupted and instead of darkness there was nothing but life. The stormy beach was no more and Tomoko could hear Esme, L, V, Qing Li and the nurse and doctor. After reaching thirty chest compressions and two breaths of rescue breathing the limit that this method had to be successful. When she still wasn't breathing Dr H was about to call it.By some miracle, Tomoko started to breathe once more and cough a lot as she took big breaths of air. She opened her eyes which were blurred by the tears that filled her eyes. After being awake for a few seconds Tomoko closed her eyes back too weak to keep them open. Though she was finally free from her slumber and there was hope once more. The nurse rejoiced and Qing Li felt at ease seeing that Tomoko had woken up even if it was for a few seconds.Aranya appeared next to L. "Chiyo said to go to you." She said softly and looked up at L. "She said you are going to help me." She offered a smile despite having the appearance of a child with a broken neck. It was a wholesome scene. Qing Li left and waited outside also she was quiet to herself. She watched Esme like a hawk since she didn't know her and she had what was precious to her. After a while speaking up. "Give me her."Qing Li took the baby girl from Esme and held her to her chest. She wasn't about to let harm come to this child since her own daughter just moved on thanks to L's efforts. She was always a protective mother and that shone brightly when she cared for her boys DS and D. Just like Jie Li she was harder on Tomoko but also saw her as a wayward child needing a mother's guide. She was going to be vigilant and fix things for Tomoko she promised.Tomoko heard the words both from Esme and L and what Qing Li said to Esme. She was tired and weak, and the sensation of pain filled her body due to the crude caesarean section. "Good..." She said weakly and with a raspy voice that came in tow with a cough. The convulsion had reopened her stitches, and the loss of blood sealed her to sleep again but this time she would wake up again after she recovered her energy. The nurses were in the middle of re-sewing her and offering what nature method of pain relief given her drug addiction history. They needed to be careful. Aranya nodded and played with her hair. She didn't understand fully what was going on but stuck to L's side.